First of all thank you for selecting my story for the book club, I'm very flattered.
Before I address specific issues pertaining to this fic, I would like to put this story back in its context:
I started writing HC around September/October 1998. The first chapter was published on December 15th 1998 and the last in April 2000.
I never meant for it to be so long. It was initialy supposed to be a short story based on the rather crude: "what would it take for M&S to have sex in the FBI parking garage?". Nope, there were no grand scheme planned.(I think this goes a long way to explain why Amyhit felt such a change of tone after the first fifty pages. More on this later.)
It was my first story. My only previous attempt at fanfic had been to add Skinner's inner monologue on a transcript scene from the "Red & The Black". And although I will always be proud of HC, there are many things that I would change now, if I ever revised the story.
Now about the story itself.
I found it very interesting to hear Amyhit say how she felt the fic changed dramatically around page fifty. I guess that's how long it took me to find my voice, and that at the beginning I didn't dare step too far away from canon. I am indeed a rabid Iolokus fan but I am also very aware that it is not given to everyone to take this particular brand of crazy and make it work.
I guess the beginning of the story revolved on "what if Scully's traumas had really taken their toll? What if Mulder, instead of being the crazy one, was the one getting better, what would their dynamic be like?" But I was an unexperienced writer back then, and I agree with Amy when she says: instead of sharp, flinty, enticingly screwed up characters, Mulder and Scully come off as...well, he's an asshole and she's just sort of pitiful. Though I'm still quite fond of the ending of that "Scully high as a kite" scene.
Anyway, the fic was supposed to end after the parking garage scene. But somehow, it didn't and became a completely different creature altogther. And I'm very proud of the fact that the show, came up with the concept of aliens being responsible for human evolution AFTER Cat - my then awesome beta scientist - and I, had used the idea for cornerstone of HC.
I also agree that the Scully/Diana interactions were at times too bitchy and heavy handed. This was just plain cheap and sloppy wirting.
Now about *that* sex scene in Tunisia. (copying and pasting some of the stuff I've discussed with Amy in a pm.)
Do I think it's rape? No I don't think it is, because:
A) they were in the middle of having sex. B) Scully, or whatever was controlling Scully at the time did try to escape when she felt exposed, but the minute she felt Mulder still hard above her she stopped fighting and Her hips pushed up slightly against his . She stopped fighting then, yes she didn't participate but that's only because there was no longer any need to. The alien inside her had what it wanted: coitus.
I have to admit I debated many times about whether or not I should "sanitize" this scene and tone done the violence of it.
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Date: 2011-06-15 04:51 pm (UTC)Before I address specific issues pertaining to this fic, I would like to put this story back in its context:
I started writing HC around September/October 1998. The first chapter was published on December 15th 1998 and the last in April 2000.
I never meant for it to be so long. It was initialy supposed to be a short story based on the rather crude: "what would it take for M&S to have sex in the FBI parking garage?". Nope, there were no grand scheme planned.(I think this goes a long way to explain why Amyhit felt such a change of tone after the first fifty pages. More on this later.)
It was my first story. My only previous attempt at fanfic had been to add Skinner's inner monologue on a transcript scene from the "Red & The Black". And although I will always be proud of HC, there are many things that I would change now, if I ever revised the story.
Now about the story itself.
I found it very interesting to hear Amyhit say how she felt the fic changed dramatically around page fifty. I guess that's how long it took me to find my voice, and that at the beginning I didn't dare step too far away from canon. I am indeed a rabid Iolokus fan but I am also very aware that it is not given to everyone to take this particular brand of crazy and make it work.
I guess the beginning of the story revolved on "what if Scully's traumas had really taken their toll? What if Mulder, instead of being the crazy one, was the one getting better, what would their dynamic be like?" But I was an unexperienced writer back then, and I agree with Amy when she says: instead of sharp, flinty, enticingly screwed up characters, Mulder and Scully come off as...well, he's an asshole and she's just sort of pitiful. Though I'm still quite fond of the ending of that "Scully high as a kite" scene.
Anyway, the fic was supposed to end after the parking garage scene. But somehow, it didn't and became a completely different creature altogther. And I'm very proud of the fact that the show, came up with the concept of aliens being responsible for human evolution AFTER Cat - my then awesome beta scientist - and I, had used the idea for cornerstone of HC.
I also agree that the Scully/Diana interactions were at times too bitchy and heavy handed. This was just plain cheap and sloppy wirting.
Now about *that* sex scene in Tunisia. (copying and pasting some of the stuff I've discussed with Amy in a pm.)
Do I think it's rape? No I don't think it is, because:
A) they were in the middle of having sex.
B) Scully, or whatever was controlling Scully at the time did try to escape when she felt exposed, but the minute she felt Mulder still hard above her she stopped fighting and Her hips pushed up slightly against his . She stopped fighting then, yes she didn't participate but that's only because there was no longer any need to. The alien inside her had what it wanted: coitus.
I have to admit I debated many times about whether or not I should "sanitize" this scene and tone done the violence of it.
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