-That Scully's still planning to leave. I've always considered her experience in Antarctica to be the thing which makes leaving seem utterly impossible. Not to mention, I think leaving only seemed possible to her in the first place before she was forced to slow down and think beyond the practicalities of it.
I didn't think the leaving was supposed to be voluntary on her part.
"That's not what I meant. Mulder, I'm tired of this. I'm tired of having to be on my guard every time I turn the corner, every time I open a car door, every time I step into a room. I'm tired of having to wonder what is happening in my life as a result of the actions of others. I'm tired of wondering what's going in my *own* body. I hate this, Mulder. I hate the whole fucking thing."
His hand had stopped moving.
"What are you saying, Scully?"
"I'm saying that when we get back, *if* we ever get back, maybe I shouldn't fight the transfer. Maybe I should go to Utah, get some perspective. Maybe I should leave the X-files."
I think Mulder gets what this is about. Intellectually, anyway. As he says a beat later, they don't even have the X-Files. Scully seems depressed and discouraged at this point and maybe that's understandable, given what's she's been through. Who knows how the exposure to the alien virus may have affected her? What changes her mind forever is what They do next: torture Mulder. Smooth move, Consortium Master Minds!
They say too much to each other. They reveal too much, they mutually acknowledge too much. As an AU scenario it would certainly work, but as a gap-filler fic that is supposed to be canon adherent, I find it a significant stretch. If this had really happened, I would then have to readjust how I look at every M/S interaction from then on out. Which is perfectly alright, but I rather like my current perspective, I like that they have yet to mutually acknowledge anything for another year at least, which leaves the fic and I at something of an impasse, though an amicable one.
I find it impossible to believe with Mulder having gone to Antarctica and back for her, that there could be any doubt in Scully's mind how he feels about her. And I dislike the series once the show moves to LA so I have no problem using this as my emotional canon. I vote the series ends now!
Seriously, what works for me best about this fic is what doesn't work for you: their emotional journey. I'm crying my eyes out at the end of this. I'm crying for Mulder and Scully. I'm even crying for Captain Neill.
But as far as Scully getting to be the only one who does anything heroic here, aside from Captain Neill, of course, doesn't that just balance out the damned movie? She's the one who gets pulled out of the alien ice chest by the unstoppable Super Agent, playing Princess Aurora to his Prince Charming in FTF. So she gets to show her stone cold bitch credentials here. Works for me.
My theory is Captain Neill thinks Mulder's a sorry sob because he's in love with Scully himself. He knows Mulder is in love with her, but Mulder never does anything about it. "Just kiss her dammit," or words to that effect, right? And probably being stuck in that listening post for a year watching Mulder jerk off and have nightmares didn't do anything to improve Neill's opinion of him either.
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Date: 2011-08-16 03:23 am (UTC)I didn't think the leaving was supposed to be voluntary on her part.
"That's not what I meant. Mulder, I'm tired of this.
I'm tired of having to be on my guard every time I
turn the corner, every time I open a car door, every
time I step into a room. I'm tired of having to
wonder what is happening in my life as a result of
the actions of others. I'm tired of wondering what's
going in my *own* body. I hate this, Mulder. I hate
the whole fucking thing."
His hand had stopped moving.
"What are you saying, Scully?"
"I'm saying that when we get back, *if* we ever get
back, maybe I shouldn't fight the transfer. Maybe I
should go to Utah, get some perspective. Maybe I
should leave the X-files."
I think Mulder gets what this is about. Intellectually, anyway. As he says a beat later, they don't even have the X-Files. Scully seems depressed and discouraged at this point and maybe that's understandable, given what's she's been through. Who knows how the exposure to the alien virus may have affected her? What changes her mind forever is what They do next: torture Mulder. Smooth move, Consortium Master Minds!
They say too much to each other. They reveal too much, they mutually acknowledge too much. As an AU scenario it would certainly work, but as a gap-filler fic that is supposed to be canon adherent, I find it a significant stretch. If this had really happened, I would then have to readjust how I look at every M/S interaction from then on out. Which is perfectly alright, but I rather like my current perspective, I like that they have yet to mutually acknowledge anything for another year at least, which leaves the fic and I at something of an impasse, though an amicable one.
I find it impossible to believe with Mulder having gone to Antarctica and back for her, that there could be any doubt in Scully's mind how he feels about her. And I dislike the series once the show moves to LA so I have no problem using this as my emotional canon. I vote the series ends now!
Seriously, what works for me best about this fic is what doesn't work for you: their emotional journey. I'm crying my eyes out at the end of this. I'm crying for Mulder and Scully. I'm even crying for Captain Neill.
But as far as Scully getting to be the only one who does anything heroic here, aside from Captain Neill, of course, doesn't that just balance out the damned movie? She's the one who gets pulled out of the alien ice chest by the unstoppable Super Agent, playing Princess Aurora to his Prince Charming in FTF. So she gets to show her stone cold bitch credentials here. Works for me.
My theory is Captain Neill thinks Mulder's a sorry sob because he's in love with Scully himself. He knows Mulder is in love with her, but Mulder never does anything about it. "Just kiss her dammit," or words to that effect, right? And probably being stuck in that listening post for a year watching Mulder jerk off and have nightmares didn't do anything to improve Neill's opinion of him either.